Holy Crap! It's Been Too Long

Well i think i have hit that point where my brain has officially stopped working. Ha. I am up doing homework as usual. This past week has been so stressful i think i am going to explode! There have been so many things going on. I have started my schooling and trying to get things organized around the house. I know it's by chance, but my husband has been getting more work lately right when i start school so it has been crazy :( I would just like to know when it's going to get cooler, i mean is it ever? It feels awesome at night but man, it doesn't feel better during the day yet. Ok i am done bitching over less important things. Ha. I am getting closer to having my house to myself and that is something to be excited about. YaY!! One more week! :) I have been waiting for this moment a long time, and I am definitely anticipating it. I have come to realize that my problems that i think are big, are not so big. For instance i have a good friend Brad that has been sick and still has to function in a crazy world. I don't know if he wants me talking about him so sorry Bradley. hehe. love ya. Well i will stop mentioning names but let's just say i have come to appreciate the problems i think i have. hehe. Oh ya! I opened the door and that cool air is the best! I know i am weird, no just tired. Well it's off to bed for me. nighty nite :)

Enough is Enough

Well i have thought about alot today. I start to wonder when enough is enough. What do i mean by that? Well, i guess there is no particular thing, it just seems like things have started to pile. Things seem to keep happening to me and people i love and i wonder when it all stops. I wonder if there are those people out there like me who are generally nice people. Ok really nice, too nice. I try to do my best to support, love, and listen to those around me. Sometimes i feel like i dont get it back and i start to wonder if its just me. Am i too sensitive, or am i justified in feeling this. I know im rambling again, but to my credit i did warn my readers that i do this lol. Right now i am surrounded by chaos and i feel like no matter what i do its wrong. I am, by choice, someone who bites my toungue to keep peace. When do i know if its the right thing to do because you love them, and going absolutely bannanas. A bannana sounds good lol:) Anyways, its a good thing i have a good support system. (you know who you are) :) I think i need a vacation, and no i dont think im alone in this. lol . Its gonna be nice when i can just write about positive things all the time ha. Enough is enough of this boo hooing. lol. Ok i better go to bed before i totally go off the deep end or take my readers there ha. Better luck next time.......

Getting Behind

It has been awhile since i have written and i am getting scolded for it lol. i have been very busy or crazy. I think they are the same thing sometimes. ha. I have talked to a couple of people who have had bad days lately. I think i have had one of those years lol. Well on to better things huh. Im sorry if i ramble, it is quite a habit with me. I start school in a few days and i think im gonna go crazy trying to learn things all over again. I know there are people out there like me who have been out of school for years. I seemed to have forgotten a lot of things that i learned in high school. I have been trying to learn algebra and its not going so well. I talk to my friend Brad about this and he is no help lol (jk). I start to wonder if i didnt apply myself or if i really dont do well at learning. I keep telling myself that saying of " the things in life which are the hardest, seem to be the most worth it." I dont know if this will be the case with school but it seemed to be true in the past. I think im at that point where i want to accomplish something i know will be difficult, yet fulfilling. I think i picked the right thing cuz its definitely hard,lol. I think this will be good for my kids as well. They will know the importance of going for what you want. Well i think i am rambling again. ha. I am going to end this before i start forgetting people will actually read this. Until next time.....

Look At Me Go!

Well here i am again. I have been thinking lately about what makes me happy. My husband came to me just yesterday easing me into something he would really love to do. Now, he knows i will probably have a hard time letting this happen but i still told him i would think about it. As i sat there alone late at night thinking about how to tell him no, i couldnt think of a good reason. I have decided to go back to school see and he knows i have been waiting a long time for this. Even though he knows how hard it will be juggling school with 5 children, he wants to make it work cuz it makes me happy so how could i tell him no. I guess i figured its about time we do what we always wanted to do. We started a family very young in my opinion. Even though i would never trade my children i just think its time my husband and i think about what we want too. I know there will always be things that are going to get in the way of happiness but i have learned its something i have to work for every day. I am very determined to have that life that i always imagined having. I think my husband and i got into a place where we both kind of got lost and its time we find ourselves and each other again. well i have rambled long enough. until next time.........

In The Beginning

Well this is the beginning for me. We shall see how this goes. I told my sis Connie that I would give this a try. I am not very good or creative with my writing but love to write, if that makes any sense.(ha) Well hopefully like a few people I know, I will be able to inspire in some way. I think this might be a good thing for me especially with the week I have had. Hopefully this will at least take some stress away.(lol) Well until next time this is all I have.